Spilling my Blue

blah...

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 02:57:08 GMT

Gawd, my LJ changed..its been forever since i've been here...i'm on myspace now.

well, mallorie is here.
I just saw my mom after 17 years.
umm, my daughter is 13 months.
i'm 22....

wow change happens

wow...

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 15:42:12 GMT

It's been a long time since i updated this thing. Luna is 6 months now and getting bigger. We are doing fine. We finally got a computer, which cost us an arm and a leg...but it will be fine. Later...the baby is fussing

A day older a day wiser...or not?

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 18:33:30 GMT

Not to much to report. The dig 21 came and went and I don't feel much different. Luna is doing awsome and keeps me going. She is the best kid ever. Cris is home for a 4 day so it's going to be nice having some help with Luna.

Finally got a Job...$80 for 2 days a babysitting a week...kinda cool. Some extra money will help me get stuff for her and me.

I've lost 35 pounds already and feel like a new women. I want to get smaller then I was before the baby..we will see.

Miss all of you...only emily called me for my b-day...mal and kari are slacking...hrmmm...miss you anyway.

-blue

My Moon

Fri, 27 May 2005 19:37:13 GMT

No pics yet...I have to send them to mal...but the web-site is done.

Go to Babiesonline.com
hit "babies' pages"
put in Hernandez for the last name
then her birthday, may 17, 2005
select Luna Guadalupe Hernandez
If they ask for a password put Luna

Enjoy my moon
it should be done soon.

6 days of sleep depravation...

Tue, 24 May 2005 00:33:55 GMT

6 days ago Luna was born at exactly 8:28pm. A jem to say the least. My labor wasn't that bad as I thought it would be. My husband was so good to me. We are doing great and she is so calm. I just love her to pieces. I'm going to have mal post a pic of her up since I'm not that computer savy and I don't have a scanner. I just have to get more stamps.

Not to much else going on other then being a walking kitchen. I'm just so tired but I haven't lost me mind yet. I miss all of you and hope to chat with all of you soon.

Take care of you!

If silence could talk...

Fri, 13 May 2005 19:51:30 GMT

It's set for Monday! Wow, in just a couple of days I will have a family of my own. It's so strange. I just sit sometimes in silence thinking about all that is going to change. All that is going to happen within our little circle that Cris and I have created. I'm so happy and at time truly puzzled. Puzzled? Well, How it all came to be. In the past I found it hard to commit to anything let alone anyone and here I am married and about to have a little one. This is truly amazing.

I will call all of you and tell you how precious she truly is. I think she is going to look a lot like her father...which is a really good thing. My brain and logic and her fathers good looks would be nice...well maybe not my brain. Hehehe.

I will chat with you all later.

-blue

My love is...

Tue, 10 May 2005 00:36:04 GMT

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	light up a day
Your touch is...	irresistable
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	hypnotising
Your love is...	unique

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The days get longer...

Tue, 10 May 2005 00:28:20 GMT

Oh, the pain...I guess that is when mothers love their childern. They go through so much pain during the prego and labor part that it makes the love worth everything.

So the doc told me that he wanted to enduce me between 39 to 40 weeks...and my due date is the 18th. I don't understand. I just wish he would get it over with I hate not being able to sleep at night. Tired of not seeing her face. I just want her here already.

It's amazing how much I love her and I don't even know her. Her dad swells with pride when he does talk about her I pretend not to notice but inside it make me cry with happiness. She is going to have a father that loves her so much. It's truly amazing. I know I've done one good thing for her...given her a loving father that is never going to turn his back on her like so many of the people in my life. I'm just so greatful for that.

My sis called and wished me a happy mother's day. It seemed hollow...especially from her. Montez (her eldest) is still in FL with the half sisters and bio-mom. If you ask me I think she sent him to live with mom and dad. Wonderful and she still complains about bio-mom. I just don't get her. She is thinking about moving to Indy. Great...That is all I need her butting into my life. Filling my head again with non-sense and lies. I love her she just needs to grow up and stop pretending to want me in her life.

All is well over at our place...just awaiting our pride and joy...
"Luna, we love you...you can come out now!"

it's so true

Mon, 02 May 2005 23:50:01 GMT

Your True Birth Month Is June

Fussy

Abiding

Friendly

Stubborn

Talkative

Sensitive

Executive

Hesitating

Easily hurt

Active mind

Easily bored

Daydreamer

Loves to joke

Tends to delay

Temperamental

Brand conscious

Loves to dress up

Having lots of ideas

Good debating skills

Funny and humorous

Thinks far with vision

Prone to getting colds

Polite and soft-spoken

Able to show character

Seldom show emotions

Knows how to make friends

Easily influenced by kindness

Takes time to recover when hurt

Choosy and always wants the best

Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends

What's Your True Birth Month?

A long time over due!

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 19:04:33 GMT

Hey all!
Yes, I'm finally writing in this stupid thingy. It's been a while. I have been busy as most of you all know...with the hubby and the bubble in my belly. Things are finally starting to come together for me and the family we have built. Know that I miss everyone of you and that I'm doing just fine. I can't wait for Luna to come into the world. I have nothing but love for her. I know that all of you will get joy from her as well. No doudt the I'm nervous as ever to be a mommy considering my past and all...but I have a feeling a week into it I will be a natural.

In a little over a year we will move from this place. Closer to all of you back in the normal part of the world. Sure all will be well by the time I get back.

I will send all of you pics of the baby. She is to arrive soon. I talked with the doc and he said that I was right on time with everything. I'm not diabetic...which I could have told him. I also have only gained 25 with the baby...which is what they told me to stay with. Not bad...I just can't wait to lose it all. I should in no time.

I miss all of you and hope all is going well in your lives. Call me when time permits and I will do like wise.

chow
spillingblue

kari's quiz...kinda cool

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 18:51:16 GMT

Bast
Indeed, you are 54% erudite, 83% sensual, 50% martial, and 70% saturnine.

Bast was considered the Goddess of pleasures, which covered a lot of territory. Among many of the things that fell under her patronage were: generosity, music and dance, childbirth, protection against evil, frivolity and sex. And this is by no means a complete list of all she covered. Not only was she the Goddess of all cats, but of all animals in general. If this wasn't enough, she was also the Goddess of fire and of the moon and protecress of women and children.

Bast was one of the most popular deities in all of Egypt. Cats of course were the most sacred of all animals to the Egyptians, but the black cat was particularly sacred to Bast. Several temples were dedicated to her, and each was home to countless cats which were treated as literal incarnations of the Goddess.

Bast was also the sister of Sekhmet. Together the twin sisters formed the "Yin Yang" of Egyptian religion, Bast, depicted as a young woman with the head of a domestic cat, being the positive force, and Sekhmet, shown with the head of a lioness, being the destructive force. For those of you who love wine; the white wine of Lower Egypt was the Wine of Bast, while the blood-red wine of Upper Egypt was called the Wine of Sekhmet.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 6% on erudite

You scored higher than 76% on sensual

You scored higher than 32% on martial

You scored higher than 81% on saturnine

Link: The Mythological Goddess Test written by Nitsuki on Ok Cupid

same survey as mal!

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 16:44:57 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression of me?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your lj and see what I say about you?

Here at the library...

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 16:58:57 GMT

Nerd alert!
I'm such a nerd. At the friggin library again. I rented 3 books already...summer sisters, Liliths Brood (thanks Kari, for my addiction. The books reminds me of you. Nothing personal) and Prodigal summer. All really great books. I'm into 2 of them at the same time.

Mallorie is thinking about comming to see me and maybe stay awhile. I'm really excited. I think that it will be a great idea. We could do a lot of cool emo things on a military base....? Yea...no it will be fun. She will find a nice army guy and fall deeply in love! LOL. I only home. I have perspectives. Although if and when cris gets deployed all of the single guys that I know willl go with him. Not good. Hrmm...we will think of something. Maybe she could write them. I'm thinking about Brooker...he is from Wisconsin. Good guy and really funny!

I talked with Melissa today. She is still seeing Tj which is the best guy to ever happen to her. I'm so happy. I still need to call Adrienne and Adam. I'm sure they think that I droped of the face of the earth. I talked with Alli...she's in a good relationship with a guy she just met.

Well off to neopets.com. I'm such a nerd!

-blue...just blue today no ocean

Here it is...

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 20:53:48 GMT

I'm sitting at the computer looking for some inspiring words. None. I'm left without the words I can only taste. I'm doing okay...just waiting for my life to start. Waiting for some clue that I've done the right thing. I miss family. The tightness...the chokehold. Only on days I find nothing else to miss...which are to often to count. I miss all of you in Indy...all of you in Heaven...all of you that aren't in my life cause you fell by words used to often to get my attention. I hope it all changes that the wind blows just right and we all see straight agian. Cause all I know is that I found what makes me happy I just wish that I could show the world what it has made me. I just wish that I could see it closer to drown in it so I don't care what they all think.

I'm doing fine...I'm doing great. I found love in many different shades. I just need frames. I just need time. I just need to breathe.

blue

-spilled the blue by accident on the way to the shitter...

The roof caved in...

Fri, 21 May 2004 15:57:39 GMT

Hey...all. No need for alarm. The place that we were going to move into is a no go. We wanted to have a few room mates just to make the payments go smoothly but a guy ruined it for all of us. So today we are to go place hunting again. All of my work for nothing not to mention the deposit we put down. We are not alone though, one of Cris's superiors is going to help us out. He wasn't at first because he thought cris had it under control. Which in reality I was making all of the decisions because he was so tired by the end of the day. Grr...I'm not bitter! LOL. Being in a marriage is really strange. All of the bullshit stops (some is just starting to kick in). No I mean the "I wonder if he likes me" the's "will he call me today" He is constantly calling me to tell me he loves me and to see what I have accomplished while he is working his tail off. I feel helpless when I don't have the car and can't go get applications. When I can't get all of my benefits without him even though I have power of attorney. It really sucks. I will be happy when this is all settled and I can begin school.
When i get my phone turned on I will call all of you I just feel weird using darcy's phone (she is the girl I'm living with, one of cris's buddy's house.) I love you all and miss you all to pieces. You guys are my true friends. Laterz!

-detaching myself from the blue to get a better look

Living...

Mon, 17 May 2004 02:40:01 GMT

I'm alive and well...thinking about shit
all the time and triing to figure out what
to do next. That is what life is about...shitfuck...
-blue

Wedding bells anyone?

Tue, 04 May 2004 19:38:26 GMT

Yes, It's true...this time tomorrow I will be married! Wow, really amazing if you ask me.
I miss my parents more then ever I just wish that I could have them in my life and still have a sense of peace. We argue all the time..talk to much till all that is left are raw emotions and feelings of anger. I don't know how to deal. Still haven't called them to see how they are. I feel bad. My phone is an ass so I haven't been receiving most of my calls. That sucks. I miss Kari but my friends here have been more then supportive

-Hiding my blue to make it better

This stinks...

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 17:18:02 GMT

I'm at the Y and it won't let me see my page. It will let me add and entry. I bet it was the naughty words that I used for the APC concert. I'm such a potty mouth. Silly me. Long day yesterday...umm..naughty me. I'm such a bad girl! LOL. Anyway, I can all the way here I should go workout. Talk to you laterz. Look Kari no River...lol.

-Seeing if the blue fits
Blue

APC Rules!

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 21:26:10 GMT

A Perfect Circle Rocked my socks off. Not to mention I got to see Kari...sweet. It would have been nice to have Mal and Cristo there but somehow we made it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAYNERD!

SHITFUCK AND ASSNIPPLE!
-Rock out with your cock out

The river flows...

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 21:23:06 GMT

I just got back from hanging out with my baby. He is the best. We sat and talked for the longest time about what is going on in this head of mine. He agreed to meet with my parents. He doesn't think that me running away from things is a good idea.
I really don'e know what to think about it all. I asked him how he knew that he wanted to be with me and stuff and he told me that he knows because he isn't worried about. He feels calm and has no worries. I just love the way he looks at me. The way he kisses me. I never have felt anything like this before.

I left this morning in such a bad mood. I was triing to call him all yesterday and this morning. He was sleeping. I had this whole thing in my head where I was paranoid that he didn't love me anymore all because of what my parents were saying to me. They were telling me that he didn't love me. That he was just using me for sex. That he just wanted someone
to control. If anything I'm a little paranoid about what he does. I want to know where he is all the time. I want to know if some other girl is throwing herself at him. I would kick some ass. It all started because he calls me like 3 to 4 times a day. My mom thinks that is too much. I like it because before when he was gone he couldn't call me all that much. He was in Iraq. Now he is home and he wants to be with me and I want to be with him. This whole thing pisses me off. I just don't know what to do anymore. I really want to be with him and I want him to get along with my parents. I don't know if that will happen.

I asked him today about it and he told me to envite my parents to the wedding...lol. I just laughed and thought it was a good idea. I just wasnt to run away from it all. I want to just be with him and never let him go.

and the river flows...

-holding on tight and never letting it go
Blue

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Wed, 14 Apr 2004 20:53:12 GMT

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